:: pause ::

i am so ridiculously sad. it's a settle, barely there sort of sadness, but it's there, none-the-less. lingering just beneath skin, hiding behind my heart beats, i feel it when i swallow. the biggest tear is trapped somewhere in my throat.

but if i have learned anything in the past two years...is that tears...and screams...don't do a damn thing. doesn't prevent your brain from malfunctioning, doesn't bring back the dead, doesn't make someone love you with all of themselves, doesn't keep a baby from being vacuumed...

i feel like i'm at my breaking point. tired of images. of privacy. of looking "normal" while dealing with some of life's greatest turmoils for appearances sake. 

this challenge is good for me. needed. healing. something light and purposeless has taken on an even greater purpose...

(i'm glad only 2 people read this blog)